This afternoon I am seeing the psychiatrist. I'm sure he will be clearing me for the procedure since he has been very supportive so far.
I have been on antidepressants for some time now. There have been days when I have stayed in my bed with my covers over my head. I have turned to chocolate for comfort. I have felt angry at myself for my lack of control. I can blame no one but me for what I have done to my body.
My doctors, family and friends tell me to stop being so hard on myself because I am doing something about the problem. I appreciate the support and encouragement. I will need to accept a lot of changes. My birthday without cake. No more carbonated beverages or Godiva chocolates . I feel ashamed that these sacrifices are nothing compared to people suffering with cancer or wounded soldiers missing limbs.
Keep up the good work. May your desire be large and your cravings small.
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