Another Rainy Day

We're having a really big rainstorm.  We just had one on Sunday.  Lots of flooding in NY, NJ and CT.  A railroad bridge was completely washed away and left the tracks dangling in the air.  This storm pretty closely coincides with the big snowstorm that was predicted for March 13th or 14th.  I'm glad that its rain and not snow.

I'm still getting to the gym three days per week.  Here I am in the massage chair after my workout.  Don't I look relaxed?  I took this picture with my Blackberry while the chair was vibrating.  Fortunately it didn't come out blurry.

Many years ago, when I attended weight watchers, they read aloud every member's weight loss for the week.  They would not read the gains.  At the end they totaled up all the losses to see how much weight the group, as a whole, had lost together.  Before the days of digital scales the official scales had sliding weights.  There was a small one for measuring single pounds and a larger weight for increments of fifty pounds.  It was a really big thrill to move one of the fifty pound weights.  The Weight Watcher leader was sure to mentioned any members who moved one of the big ones.

This week I moved another of those big weights.  I have now lost 125 lbs. and moved three of those big  scale weights.  It is not as graphic on a digital scale but the thrill is still there.

I have a cousin who recently was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.  I spoke with him today and he said he wonders where all the time has gone.  We haven't seen each other in years.  Nobody ever knows how many years one has left on this earth.  I regret wasting years of my life with unhealthy habits.  I'm grateful that my choices have enabled such great changes in my body and mind.  Yes, my mind.  Because I know that every day for the rest of my life I must choose to be healthy.  I've been trying to fool myself for way too long.  I used to jokingly say that it was OK to eat broken cookies because all the calories leak out.  As silly as that sounds it is not too much more so than the lies I told myself when I ate a whole container of Haagen Daz Rum Raisin or a whole Cadbury Dairy Milk bar.

My daughter went to college in a town with a Krispy Kreme Donut Shop.  We used to go in there when we went to pick her up for a weekend.  There is a sign that lights up when the donuts are hot.  If you go in the place when the sign is lit they hand out a hot donut to everyone who walks in the door.  The hot glazed donuts are so tender that it isn't necessary to chew at all.  I was telling a friend who also struggles with weight about this today.  He made me stop talking about it because he said it is like looking at porn.  I had to agree.  Just THINKING about those donuts was, indeed, a pornographic mind picture.  Fortunately the nearest Krispy Kreme is too far away to be a real temptation.

Today I am praying for my cousin as he faces the formidable battle ahead of him.  My battle seems easy in comparison.

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan