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Monday, September 19, 2011

Arms of Steel?

 One of the alumni attending our class reunion in July took lots of pictures.  I was happy to see one of my husband and me dancing.  (This was the first time I've ever gotten him to dance to anything besides a "slow dance")  I thought my arm looked a little unusual.  Now I do have lots of loose skin but there was something else...
 Lately I've been noticing that I can see veins in my arms and some muscle definition when I flex my hands.  I've never had anything like this in my entire life!  Now I'm a long way from this picture of an anonymous body builder but I am definitely showing progress from the weight training.  Speaking as a nurse who frequently has to access veins where none are apparent (like today for instance) I know the next time I need blood drawn it will be easier than previously.  

Don't worry friends and family.  I have no intentions of making myself into a steroid-popping exhibitionist.  It is just nice to see my hard work pay off.

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan

Sunday, September 11, 2011

9-11 Ten Years Later

 Today was the ten year anniversary of September 11, 2001.  I lost a wonderful coworker that day.  Christopher Blackwell, a paramedic in Danbury,  Connecticut also was a New York City Fireman with Rescue 3 in the Bronx.  Only one helmet was all that was ever found of his entire unit.  This is a picture closeup of a commemorative tee shirt which was sold to raise money for his family.  I could not wear mine until last year because I was too big.

Last year I proudly wore my shirt on the 9th anniversary of 9-11. I had lost 60 pounds in three months and was feeling healthier than I had in years.  (That's me in the middle)

Today I put that shirt on again.  Its a lot bigger today than it was a year ago.  So far I've lost 166 pounds since my gastric by-pass.


I am proud to honor the brave heroes of that tragic day.  My own personal struggles do not compare with those of the families who so abruptly lost loved ones.  I saw on TV Christopher's daughter as she read his name at the New York City commemorative ceremony today.  She was wearing the uniform of the NYPD.  His son became a member of NYFD.  What a wonderful way to honor their father by their service.

September 11th, 2001 was a clear, cloudless day until those planes hit the towers.  The smoke and clouds of dust did not reach my home fifty miles from ground zero but the gloom and fear certainly did.  That day I cooked comfort food for my family.  I made homemade lasagne.  How like me to use food to soothe the fears of my children.  Throughout my life I have used oral gratification to ease pain and angst.

The endless news footage of the events at the three sites of tragedy continued to bombard us for weeks.  Today, ten years later, I cannot watch.  I can see the towers fall without looking.  I  see the gray clouds of dust billowing down the city streets.  Thousands who had escaped the towers ran in fear from those clouds.

I still have the urge to use comfort food to assuage stress and pain.  I don't know if I'll ever completely get over that habit.  I am better than I was ten years ago.  I did not make lasagne today.

Love to all, especially those who serve our cities and our nation,
Marlena of Mohegan.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Damn Those Graham Crackers and Full Speed Ahead!

I did NOT eliminate stress from my life in the past week.  In fact, I had two meltdowns complete with tears.  The first crisis was in response to a financial issue while at home.  The second crisis was on Friday at work after an unpleasant interaction with one of the ER doctors.  After I lost it the day didn't really improve much.  I struggled to regain myself but I could not keep up with my computer documentation.  This stresses me out more than the actual patient care.

Last week when I got three new patients in the psychiatric area all at once my response was to stuff myself with graham crackers.  We have little individual packs with two squares in our nutrition room.  They are a very handy snack but the calories add up if you eat two or three.  Well on Friday I told myself repeatedly that I was not going to soothe myself with graham crackers.  Oh they kept calling to me from their little cubby but I resisted.  I drank more water instead of eating.

By the way, I cooked some Swiss chard this week.  I bought the multicolored kind because it looked so pretty.  It wasn't bad.  Only one other member of my family ate it but I will definitely get it again.  I read online that if you cook it the same day its picked its even more delicious.  I'll have to find a farmer's market or farm stand that has same day pickings!  Maybe next year I'll try growing some myself.

I weighed in at the Virgin Healthmiles kiosk on Friday (before the day took the nosedive) and I was happy to see that I passed through my most recent plateau.  I've been struggling to lose the same five pounds for weeks now.  The scale just wasn't moving.  I kept on exercising and even started doing weight training again.  I've been told by people who do serious weight training that if you stress muscles to the limit within eight to twelve reps that your body responds by increasing your metabolism.  It did seem to kick start me in the right direction.  I can't quit now.  I want to lose at least 60 more pounds.  My goal, however, is not a weight.  I'm in this to be healthy for the rest of my life.

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan

Monday, August 29, 2011

Soothing Stress With Food

This week has been interesting.  First we had a rare east coast earthquake.  I didn't actually feel it myself but it sure got a lot of people excited around here especially because of the nuclear power plant nearby.  Then there is my ongoing lack of fiscal responsibility.  I have not been very organized with my family finances and it has been difficult making ends meet lately.  Of course my job as an ER nurse is typically stressful from time to time.  Then this weekend we had Hurricane Irene.  I'd been noticing how I react to stressors with food.  Usually I do this without necessarily feeling actual hunger.  I grab something easy and quick but not necessarily the best choice.  I have not turned to sugary snacks but I'm not having vegetables either.  When I have fruit like cherries or grapes I have a hard time stopping myself before I eat too many.  I get overwhelmed and I just want to stuff things in my mouth.
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I have been getting posts from Obesity Action Coalition (OAC) on facebook.  Today there was one that really spoke to  me "Why Obesity Doesn't Fit Into a Bento Box".  Every time I've had a major weight loss I have always gained back more than what I'd lost.  This article goes into detail about why that happens.  Here is a link for the article http://www.huffingtonpost.com/will-aguila-md/emotional-eating_b_935289..  Obviously this is something for me to work on.

Truly exercise is part of the process I hadn't used before.  I missed a day at the gym on Saturday because of the hurricane.  It really bothered me that I would have gone too long between gym days so I went on Sunday.  Normally I save Sundays for church and family but church was cancelled due to widespread damage from the storm.  On Friday I made a trip to Manhattan.  I definitely noticed a difference from the last time I went to the city.  I got around pretty well including all the stairs to the subways.  My left knee got sore but nothing like before when both knees were screaming for mercy.

We have been parking offsite at work due to temporary closing of a parking garage.  We are transported by coach bus from the parking lot.  Today was such a nice, sunny day that I walked instead.  It took me about thirty minutes.  The bus isn't that much faster by the time I board and wait for it to leave!  I've been trying to keep my pedometer to over 7000 steps per day.  So the walk put me over my goal.  Unfortunately my drive home was more trouble than my walk.  There are still many roads blocked because of downed trees and wires.  Many traffic lights were not working.  I'm very lucky to have not lost power from the storm.  We had flooding in the neighborhood but our basement just got a little damp.

I'm going to work on the stressors.  I want to be healthy and stay that way.

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Humility is Always Around the Corner

Just when I'm poised on the boundaries of overconfidence I will be jolted back to reality.  Naturally after losing 163 pounds I hear plenty of positive feedback from my acquaintances.  My clothing is roomier and activity is easier.  It isn't hard to get carried away with myself.

I can always count on my mother to burst my bubble.  She loves me but she has a way of deflating my ego without meaning to.  Today she asked me if I was still losing weight.  I told her yes and gave her the total.  She said that she wondered because I looked bigger around the middle lately.  Thanks Mom.  (Maybe I need to stand up straight and keep my shoulders back).

Yesterday I was in the supermarket in the self-checkout aisle.  As I was finishing up the computer said "Please remove all items from the scanning scale".  I had no items on the scale.  It was my abdomen leaning on it.

Friday at work I was having trouble using the HMED computer program.  For some reason I could not type in commands.  I called ITG for help and they didn't know what was wrong and gave me the usual advice to reboot the computer.  I was about to do that and bent over to get at the power button because typing wasn't working.  I discovered that the keyboard now worked because my breasts were no longer leaning on the keys.

This Monday I walked into the locker room at work to find my locker and several others wide open and empty.  I asked aloud "am I fired?".  I was not fired but my locker was the victim of a water cooler flood from upstairs.  All my belongings were in bags in my supervisor's office.  Some things were soggy and had to be thrown out.  I had some spare clothing that needed to be laundered.  I took a picture of the lockers with my cell phone and posted it on Facebook..  My daughter informed me that that was the cleanest my locker had been in years.  I have to admit that she was right about that.  That doesn't meant it was easy to hear.

So thanks to my loved ones and to the computerized world in which we live I am well grounded in reality.  Just in case you were all worried.

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Martha Stewart I'm Not

I decided to make some healthy soup the other day.  I felt a need to increase my intake of vegetables and I made up my own recipe for white bean and kale soup.  I thought I'd share it here along with pictures of the process.

White Bean and Kale Soup

Slice an onion and brown in olive oil till brown and carmelized.  Add one or two minced garlic cloves
 Add two cans chicken broth, one large can diced tomatoes, one or two cans of small white beans plus one cup of red wine.  (I had some fresh tomatoes so I diced them up and threw them in the pot too.)
 One Smoked Pork Hock.  Use one and freeze the rest for another time.
 One large potato peeled and diced.
 Four cups Kale washed and chopped.
 Add all ingredients to the pot with the onions.  Season to taste.  I used about 1/2 tsp tumeric, freshly ground pepper and a sprinkle of salt.  Cook for about an hour to let flavors blend and vegetables are tender.
 

 There is such a variety of green leafy vegetables available in the average supermarket.  We should all eat more of these but I rarely do.  I don't even know what to do with them all.  I'm not really fond of cooked greens in a soggy lump on a plate.  I like raw spinach in salad and I like spinach cooked into lasagne or other pasta recipes. Things like Swiss chard, kale, beet greens and collards were never served in my home when I was growing up.  I've tried broccoli rabe a few times.  I sauteed it with garlic but it tends to be bitter.  Rachael Ray made it on TV once and she said you have to parboil it then discard the water to get rid of the bitter taste.  Then saute with garlic in olive oil. I'll try that next time.  I like fresh beets but does one use the tops along with the bottoms?  Beets seem expensive in the store though.  You pay about a dollar per beet in the supermarket.  I planted them once or twice but only got a few pitifully little ones.

One of the things that intimidates me about the other leafy vegetable is that you can't buy just a little bit.  The package of kale I bought was as about the size of a throw pillow.  Everyone says it cooks down but I used four cups in my recipe and I still had practically the whole bag.  Well it did cook down but even though it was supposed to be washed and trimmed there were still some of the ribs present that did not get soft enough.

Anyway, my soup was very tasty and at least two of my family members ate multiple bowls.  Next time I want to try using the Swiss chard that comes in mixed colors.  First I'll have to use up the rest of my kale.  .

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Your Fat. A Treasure Trove?

I heard on the news today that Bartolo Colon, a pitcher for the NY Yankees, had his shoulder injury treated with stem cells harvested from his fat?  This sounds way too good to be true.  After an internet news search I found that this little-known procedure was done in The Dominican Republic.  Colon is 38 years old and throwing heat like he's in his 20's.

I also saw other articles suggesting stem cell treatments for face lifts and breast augmentation.  Stem cell research was such a polarizing issue when scientists used fetal stem cells from aborted babies.  Anti-abortion activists  held back the progress in this field for decades.  Federal funding was withheld.

 Now, after all this time, we chunky types were chock full of stem cells all along?  This is a veritable bonanza!  With the soaring rate of obesity in this country we have an incalculable supply of this resource!  I am certainly happy and willing to donate as many of my fat cells as science can use.  Of course if they'd like to pay me that would be fine.  I'm ready.

Love to all,
Marlena of Mohegan.